One man’s journey through an abusive childhood, drugs and mental illness to recovery.
Elements laying the foundations for the onset of mental illness abounded in Alan Mackie’s childhood and adolescence. Feeling uwanted, neglected, and emotionally and physically abused in his home, he became prey and a victim of childhood sexual abuse.
A long journey with drugs as his companion helped him to cope and survive in his world — until that world became un-survivable.
Years of incarceration in mental institutions, with treatment involving harmful psychotropic drugs, felt to him like secondary trauma in a public funded health system that was afflicting the already afflicted.
A long haul later and freed into the community, Alan sought counselling. He studied to earn a degree in Applied Social Services, determined to do what he could to help other survivors of childhood abuse.
From the writer: I had a need to get it out of me and down on paper, an externalising in all its sordid and graphic detail. I wrestled with that aspect of my writing, but felt that anything less was to short-change and minimise the trauma undergone by victims of childhood sexual, physical and emotional abuse, and in so doing also deny counsellors, therapists and others the depth of insight I can offer.
Alan died peacefully in his sleep in 2012 at the age of 60. Friends were aware of his motivations in writing this book and banded together to help get this book into print.